On Turning 30

Monday, June 17, 2013

Today, I woke up and I was 30. And I'm ok with that. I sort of have neutral feelings about the number. I didn't dread it like some people do. I didn't mourn the loss of my 20s. In fact, let me tell you about why I'm going to be lovin' on turning 30 today:

A cake: that was Peanut's idea

I have never felt so strong and healthy in my life as I do right now. I work my behind off (literally!) every day to stay strong, vital and disease-free. I like feeling this way. Instead of focusing on all the progress that could be made, I like to think of it as having more opportunities in the future to get even better. It's not all downhill from here, and I take pleasure in knowing that.

I have never felt so completely sure of what I want to do in this life. I'm sure this vision will morph and I will always feel some level of self-doubt, but up to this point, I have never had such a clear picture as to what I was made for. Even just recognizing the desires of my heart as I grow older is so reassuring. If you had asked me what I wanted 5 or 10 years ago, I would've had some wavering answer about some fleeting thing. Or I may have said something about how I just didn't know and I'd wait for the greatest opportunity to present itself to me. I probably wouldn't have even been able to tell you what I wanted for my birthday, let alone my life. Through trial and error though, I've come to know that some passions are just hobbies, some depend on mood, and some...oh those beautiful "some" are delicious. Those are the passions that you just can't get enough of. That your mind wanders to when it wanders. That your whole body vibrates for. Never have I felt this so strongly as I do right now.

Never have I felt so sure of who my friends are than I do now. In high school, friends are fickle. In college, friends move away. In your 20s, you find your place in the workforce and community and begin to make new connections. In parenthood, you find that your lifelong friends are the ones who forgive you for being late or cancelling when your kids are moody. The ones who are still there...those are the ones you keep close to your heart.

The most perfect card from my sweet co-workers. See, at work, I'm the birthday banner lady:)

Never have I felt more secure in my marriage. Like they say, those first few years are really rough. Any good family psychologist would probably have suggested a separation. But that's not what we do. We work through those pains, put pieces back together, and make sure they're super-glued this time. We've built a family, we've merged dreams, we've chipped away at our fixer-upper home, we've combined our efforts to make our little world better, and we've learned to value one another. I'm sure this part will only get better and I look forward to that, but I can tell you that we've already come a long way.

Flowers from my sweathearts

My spirituality has never been quite so intimate as it is today. So many things about God had seemed obscure to me growing up, but make so much more sense now, especially with more experience. It's something that is difficult even for this writer to explain and so intimate that I don't know that I'd be able to. This is another relationship that I know will only get much sweeter as I grow older, and I look forward to that. In fact, I thrive upon that.

My biggest tangible goal for turning 30 was to earn my personal training certificate. It's not just an end in itself. Although I plan to pursue this passion on the side, I have deep-seated desires to make something happen with this. I want to share what I know and help other people live with more vitality and rigor. This was one of those deep-seated passions that I just didn't want to shelve or ignore. That's how regrets are born. My first passion has always been writing, which I do for a living. But health and fitness needed their own place in my repertoire. I take the CPT exam in less than 4 weeks and I am so proud of myself for following through on this dream of mine instead of taking the "easy" way out and ignoring it.

In my next 30 years, I hope that my family has expanded whether it be with new in-laws, dear friends, children or grandchildren. I know now that this heart of mine has room for whomever and whatever it is blessed with. There's no limit to the amount of love that it can handle. I hope to be able to see even more of this Earth than the scant territory than I've been exposed to already. I hope to be able to spread my passion for fitness and personal strength to as many people as I can. I hope to use those talents that have been graciously given to me to the best of my potential. I hope to give God an even greater percentage of my focus than I do now, as He so deserves, and grow more deeply in love. I look forward to this next season of my 30s to establish an even firmer base in this world (and derriere) and expand my existence. I'd like to give as much as I possibly can.

I'm lucky to be here in the first place. I'm lucky to have made it to 30. And I look forward to how these next years of my life will transform me even further.

***Also, my workout buddy and I are taking a day off from the gym to have cupcakes for lunch. Now that's a good friend:) I am also soooo looking forward to that!

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